My Breastfeeding Experience- Update 1

7/02/2018


I've been trying to keep a balance in my social media when it comes to fashion, beauty, and baby. However, in real life: I'm in my PJs, no makeup and just enjoying Nico. and the reality behind a pretty photo is not perfection.

I've been debating if I should share this post because the mommy shamming in the WWW is real- and the comments can be very harsh when you know you are doing absolutely everything to be the best mom possible. However,  I want to share my frustration just in case someone out there is going through something similar and I want to reassure you are not alone.

My plan was to breastfeed 100%; I attended breastfeeding class at the hospital and the first thing I did when they gave me Nico in the delivery room was to try to make him latch.  But like I always say, things don't always go as plan.  They took him for some tests and his blood sugar was low so they gave him the bottle instantly.  During my stay at the hospital, there wasn't a nurse who didn't try to help me. For many reasons (a nipple on the flat side and a bit of tongue tie),  we simply couldn't. The hospital also offered lactation specialists who visited with no luck. Well, the second lactation specialist was really helpful; she was able to get the colostrum out and helped me with my first pumping session. I still had hope that things will change when we got home- with strangers, and people coming in and out of the room, it can be stressful.

But oh, well...the pump became my best friend and dearest enemy. Some days I feel I live connected to this torture machine; but I live through the pain because I know my milk gives him the best nutrients out there. At the beginning, I was super excited because I was able to have a little milk bank in the fridge. But every week, Nico kept wanting more and more, and I was producing exactly the same quantity. Very fast, my reserves disappeared and some times I have to give him formula because I'm not having "the most efficient pump day".  Yeah, some days are good, some days not so much. 

Knowing that you are not producing enough takes a toll in stress. So I asked my dear IG family if they had any secrets to increase milk production. Some of you recommended me lactation cookies or teas, while the majority just told me to drink more water and have him on the boob as much as he wanted. And that was exactly what hurt, knowing that what he needed was what I couldn't do.

I never stop trying, but he would never latch on...until two days ago at 6 weeks old! I couldn't contain my happiness, I wrote close friends because I was simply so excited.  Then on the next two feedings, HE DID IT AGAIN (not for long, but nevertheless it felt like a success). Then I pictured myself writing this article and ending it with a motivational quote to never stop trying. 

After 3 successfully tries, he just stopped wanting the boob or even wanting to try. I don't know if it's because he is not getting enough milk or simply because he is so used to the bottle. He gets EXTREMELY angry and frustrated. The IG family came down again for the rescue and I know I have to continue trying but it breaks my heart to see him like that. I'm reaching out to a lactation consultant in Miami this week to check his latch, my positioning, and many other reasons that could be the reasoning behind his frustration.

 I don't know if the update #2 will have a happy ending, but I wanted to share this story because every thing we see are successful stories- while the not-so-perfect stories remain unwritten and untold.

I want to thank everyone who has given me advice, it really means the world.



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Realmente he intentado tener un balance de moda, belleza, y Nico en las redes- pero mi realidad es un 90% del tiempo en pijama sin maquillaje disfrutando al pequeñito. Y por supuesto, no todo es perfecto. 

Estuve debatiendo si compartir esto, porque sé que van a haber críticas- y son muy duras cuando uno sabe que está haciendo todo para ser la mejor mamá posible. Pero quiero compartir mi frustración porque tal vez alguien está en la misma, y quiero que sepa que no está sola.

 Mi plan siempre fue darle pecho, asistí a clases para amamantar, y fue lo primero que intenté cuando me dieron a Nico en la sala de parto. La realidad fue otra, no se pegó y al tener el azúcar baja le dieron fórmula en el hospital. Durante mi estadía en el hospital, todas las enfermeras y dos especialistas en lactancia intentaron ayudarme, todos intentos fallidos. Bueno, la última especialista, básicamente me ordeñó para sacar el calostro y sacamos algo de leche con el extractor. Mi esperanza era llegar a la casa y probar con calma pero nada. 

Así que el pump o extractor de leche se convirtió en mi mejor amigo - vivo conectada a la máquina de tortura, como la llamo, porque sé que mi leche le aporta los mejores nutrientes. Con el pasar de las semanas, Nico come más y yo produzco lo mismo- lo cual me ha dejado sin reservas y muchas veces sin nada que darle- contra mi orgullo le he tenido que completar con fórmula.  Por esa razón, pregunté por Instagram si tenían trucos para aumentar la producción de leche. Algunas me recomendaron unas galletas de avena y tés; mientras una gran mayoría me dijo la simple y cruda realidad para mi situación, que la única manera de producir más era pegándomelo más. Lo cual me dolía en el ego porque ese es exactamente el problema.

 Cada semana intentaba que se me pegara al seno, y NADA- hasta hace dos días. Mi primera impresión fue "WOW lo logramos". Le escribí a mi mamá y amigas más cercanas compartiendo la emoción. A la mañana siguiente lo intenté otra vez; se habrá pegado unos 15 minutos y lo mismo unas horas después. Ahí fue donde me imaginé escribiendo este post de una manera motivacional, diciéndoles que nunca se rindieran. 

Pero por ahora no puedo escribirlo,  por ahora solo puedo hablar de 3 intentos exitosos y muchos que no lo fueron.  En cada comida (que como saben, son muchas, cada 3 horas) me rechaza y se me rompe el corazón.  Seguiré intentando porque sé que han sido 6 semanas de tetero/biberón y que no está acostumbrado. Sé que con el tetero le sale más fácil y el debe estar igual de frustrado que yo.  

No se como terminar este post porque espero que este capítulo no haya terminado.  Esta semana quiero reunirme con una especialista en lactancia- tal vez estoy haciendo algo mal, la posición o su agarre. Pero mi razón principal para escribir este post era mostrarles un lado un poco más humano, porque solo escuchamos las historias perfectas, mientras que lo no tan perfecto se queda guardado y no debería ser así. 

De una les quiero agradecer a todas las que me han escrito y me han dado sus consejos. Los aprecio muchísimo.



10 Useful Things You Must Add to Your Baby Registry

6/30/2018


I know some people feel like having a registry is like “asking for gifts”. But I don’t see it that way, they help you get what you really need. I’ve noticed people love gifting cute baby outfits; but I’m sure they’ll prefer to know that you will give their gift frequent use (this means, hey not-mommies…if you are looking for useful baby shower gifts, this list is for you too). 

Building my baby registry wasn’t an easy task. There are so many products in the market that it is very easy to get overwhelmed. I started asking fellow moms to see what I was missing, what I should remove, or what I should switch to something else. Now that Nico is 6 weeks, I want to also share some things that have worked for us.

So here are 10 things (all available at Target!) that are not necessarily the typical things you would add to your registry but that you will be glad you did:



If there is something you will use for the next couple of years is: DIAPERS + WIPES! I’m loving the Pampers Pure Collection (which is easily available at Target) for many reasons. The diapers not only have the Pampers trusted leakage, dryness protection, and premium cotton,  but they are free of fragrance, parabens, chlorine bleaching, and 26 allegerns. Plus, they come with the cutest designs.  Nico is already wearing size 1- where is time flying by!!

If you have space in your house, add them in different sizes to your registry to make sure you don’t get only the newborn size. Also, there this cute idea to have a raffle and anyone who brings a box of diapers can enter to win a prize. It's a great way to stack up on diapers- and if they are Pampers Pure, even better.






2) Zipper Onesies
Like I said, you know you will be changing diapers non-stop.  Reason why I recommend onesies that are easy to put on and take off. I got several pants that I haven’t used because of how time consuming it is to put them and take them off every time we have to change his diaper. I also like the zipper ones because Nico (and I’m sure most babies) hates when I put clothes over his head. Win-win for mommy and baby!




This was actually a gift from my friend Erika from Blah Blah Blonde. She had a baby last year and she shared how this was a lifesaver…and she was SO right. It keeps your fingers clean from any baby diaper cream and it makes the process smoother and faster. Another must have in your changing table.




This was one of the things I did not add to my registry and I regretted it. I was like “but I live in a small apartment and the trash can is just a few steps away”; but  when there is a mess at the changing table, it’s very convenient, easy, and sanitary to have a diaper pail right by it.




We have this little pillow by the bed all the time. It’s great for feedings since  it lifts babies to a comfortable position. It is also great when holding the baby, your arms won’t get as tired. It also grows with the baby, I can’t wait see him on to tummy time, sitting, and playing.



 
They are amazing for bath time with the little ones. Before his belly button fell off, we used it flat on the counter and it provided great cushion for a towel bath. Now we use it in the bathroom sink. You just plug the sink drain, insert the flower, and let the water rise to the desired level and temperature. Nico really enjoys it, it’s perfect for newborns.




I was so nervous about clipping Nico’s nails for the first time that we took the set we purchased to the pediatrician and asked her to do it at the one-week mark. She had never seen this clipper and she was pleasantly surprised, so I knew I made the right choice. The blades overlap and they feel very safe for little fingers. It also comes with a small file. I like clipping his nails when he is fully asleep or eating (he doesn’t even notice).




I purchased a fancy crib that we have barely used.  He loves sleeping on this and we have the option of using in the bedroom and living room. I got it in the palm tree print as well as the marble print and they are both really cute (see point 10, get extra covers for everything!!).




I’ll share more of my breast feeding/ pumping experience soon. I got my double pump from my insurance company (so make sure to call!!); however, I added the storage system to my registry because I planned on building up a milk bank. The great thing about it is that the bottle lids have selectable dates so you know exactly when the milk is from and you can keep track of  the content's freshness. It also comes with freezer bags to help prolong the milk stash lifetime.




Make sure to add extra covers for everything (Crib, changing station, infant sleeper, and  nursing pillow) so you can have fresh clean sheets/ covers every time there is an unexpected baby accident, which happens more often than expected. 



What did I miss? Share with a fellow mommy below!  XOXO

STINKY BOOTY DUTY- Father's Day Special with Pampers Pure

6/16/2018


OMG! I still have my “pinch me” moments with Nico and I can’t believe it’s Gabe’s FIRST FATHER’S DAY! It’s true what they say, you fall in love with your husband even more when you see him bond with your child.

The first few days at the hospital were a bit hard for me. I was in a lot of pain to stand for diaper duty; and Gabe definitely took over like a pro. The nurses even joked asking if he was sure this was his first kid since he was killing it. Maybe he paid a lot of attention at the pre-baby classes we attended at the hospital…maybe he is a natural- I think he is a natural. 

At first Nico hated to be changed, we think it was because he would get very cold. So Gabe still makes sure he has everything in hand: the Pampers Pure Protection diaper and Pampers Aqua Pure wipes, the diaper rash cream, and a change of clothes.  But besides making it efficient, this new dad has found his unique way of making the “dirty work” FUN : Gabe sings to him. You might think he signs cute lullabies but no, Nico actually enjoys 80s and 90s tunes!! I think someone is going to be a rockstar and steal many many hearts! “Living on a Prayer” and “Bohemian Rhapsody” are on repeat at the changing table and I love seeing them bond. Even though Nico is just a month old, it gives me a glimpse into their relationship…and it makes me even more excited!

I was looking forward to try the Pampers Pure Collection at home. The diapers are free of fragrance, chlorine bleaching, lotion, parabens, natural rubber latex and other 26 allergens; and the Pampers Aqua Pure Wipes have carefully selected ingredients like 99% pure water and a touch of premium cotton. We always want the best for our babies, right?


I’d love to know from our the moms and dads out there, how do you make "Stinky Booty Duty" fun.



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Todavía tengo mis momentos que siento que me tienen que pellizcar con el pequeñito - y no puedo creer que es el primer Día del Padre de Gabe. Como les dije en el post del parto, es cierto que dicen que te enamoras más de tu esposo cuando lo ves con tu hijo.

Los primeros días en el hospital son definitivamente difíciles para toda mamá. Yo personalmente sentía bastante dolor y Gabe de una se portó como todo un PRO- las enfermeras le echaban broma y preguntaban si tenía más hijos porque cambiaba pañales como si lo hubiese hecho toda la vida. Puede que haya aprendido bastante en las clases pre-bebé a las que fuimos hace unos meses, o tal vez el sale natural. ¡Yo creo que le sale natural!

Los primeros días, a Nico no le gustaba mucho cuando lo cambiábamos; yo creo que le daba mucho frío. Esto hizo que Gabe fuese aún más rápido: se asegura de tener todo lo que necesita a la mano: los pañales y toallas húmedas de Pampers Pure, cambio de ropa, y la crema para prevenir la pañalitis. Pero aparte de ser eficiente, Gabe ha hecho de esta rutina algo divertido y un momento que ellos han hecho para compartir. Nos hemos dado cuenta que a Nico le encanta que le cantemos; pero no las típicas canciones de cuna, a Nico le encantan las canciones de los 80s y 90s. Si los ven en el cambiador, es probable que Gabe esté cantándole algo como "Living on a Prayer" o alguna de Queen. Aunque Nico solo tiene un mes, me emociona mucho verlos juntos y como se nota que van a ser mejores amigos.

Estaba muy emocionada de probar la colección de Pampers Pure- y nos ha encantado. Tiene unos diseños muy lindos, la tecnología de Pampers, y es libre de fragancia, parabenos, 26 alergenos, látex de caucho natural y más - lo mejor para el chiquitín.

¿Ustedes como hacen que la hora de los pañales sea divertida? ¡Me encantaría oír de todas las mamás que me siguen! Y ¡Feliz día a todos los papás que hacen que cada momento sea divertido!










NICO'S NURSERY REVEAL: Minimalistic zoo nursery

6/03/2018

This is probably one of my favorite posts ever! Doing the nursery was challenging due to space but so much fun. 

We live in a one-bedroom apartment with a den. When I found out I was pregnant, we decided not to move to a bigger place for a little bit.  And I don't regret this decision; this helped us downsize, organize our apartment, and invest in smart storage for our things. Also with all the added costs of a baby, adding a bigger mortgage wasn't ideal.

Originally we were going to turn the den into a nursery (This small den has been an office, an extra closet, a "guest" room, and more). Later on, everything changed. The corner where my vanity was turned into a nursery corner- and then his nursery corner took over half of our room. We  even changed the layout of my bedroom...but I have to say I am in LOVE. 



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Creo que este ha sido uno de los post más divertidos que he hecho. Decorar "el cuartito" del bebé fue un reto pero increíblemente divertido.

Como les he dicho, vivimos en un apartamento con un cuarto y un pequeño estudio sin puerta ni paredes. Cuando nos enteramos que íbamos a ser papás, pensamos en mudarnos a una casa pero después de pensarlo bien decidimos quedarnos en este apartamento por un tiempo más. No me arrepiento de esta decisión: esto nos ayudo a organizarnos, deshacernos de cosas que no usábamos y aprovechar el espacio al máximo. Aparte con todos los gastos de un bebé, añadir un alquiler más costoso no era lo ideal.

Originalmente íbamos a convertir ese estudio en el cuarto del bebé (ese espacio ha sido una oficina, un closet extra, un cuarto de visita y más). Pero como pueden ver, cambiamos de opinión mil veces y el cuartito de bebé se terminó apoderando de la mitad de nuestra habitación. Por eso quisimos que el tema fuese bastante neutral y moderno. Yo estoy encantada de como quedó y espero que a ustedes también les guste y las inspire si viven en un espacio pequeño.








Like you can imagine, the inspiration started by pinning and pinning on my Pinterest Board. 

My first purchase was the 4 little animal prints you see above the bassinet.  I got them on ETSY.   I'm going to link to the exact one I got HERE. But you can find absolutely any size and any animal you want on Etsy; with flowers for a girly girl vibe, forest animals, and more. It comes without the frames,  I found these white ones on Walmart.

The second purchase, and definitely the big investment in the room, was the basinet. It's called the SNOO by Happiest Baby. I kept seeing their ads everywhere- yes, it's pricey but they have big sales frequently. I got mine during President's Day and it was 40% off + I ended up getting a partial refund because it took a while to ship. Let me know if you guys want a full review of it but so far we love it (and Nico loves it too)!  It boosts the baby's sleep with white noise and gentle movement. Plus, it's adorable!



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Como se pueden imaginar, y como todo, mi proceso de inspiración empezó en Pinterest donde escogí que la temática del cuarto fuese de animalitos, pero como les digo: moderna y minimalista.

Mi primera compra fue hace muchos meses y fueron los 4 animalejos que ves encima del moisés. Los conseguí en ETSY y les dejo el enlace exacto acá. Pero en el buscador pueden encontrar de todo, el animal que quieras, del tamaño que quieras, y como lo quieras.  Estos me encantaron porque son animales bebés. Dependiendo de los que pidan, vienen o no con los marcos. Yo conseguí estos marcos blancos en Walmart mientras hacía compras para el Baby Shower.

La segunda compra, y definitivamente la mayor inversión del cuarto, fue el moisés. Se llama SNOO de la marca Hippies Baby. Me salía y salía la publicidad de ellos en todos lados y terminé averiguando mucho al respecto. Sí, es costosa pero tienen rebajas frecuentemente. Por ejemplo, yo la conseguí por el Día del Presidente a 40% de descuento y luego me devolvieron parte del cost porque se tardaron mucho en enviármela. Si quieren después les puedo dar una reseña más completa pero por ahora nos encanta *y a Nico también*. Ayuda a que los bebés duerman más con un movimiento suave que detecta si el bebé se está despertando y ayuda a que vuelva a dormirse. Aparte el diseño me encantó y me inspiró a añadir un poco más de madera al cuarto.










The corner came together with the ladder, the neutral blankets, and the plush animals (the giraffe and the elephant). Then I thought it needed some greens/plants. I started researching about nursery-safe plants but I ended up getting these two artificial plants from Ikea and the macrame plant hangers from Amazon.  The original idea was to hang them from the ceiling, which was a total fail because of the cement ceiling. We found this corner shelf at Target that was perfect to put one of the plants and hang the other one from below without making holes in the ceiling. Final touch, the white round fur rug. I love the texture it added to the corner.

Originally, I wanted to get a changing table with little wheels on it so we could move it from the den to the room easily. However, it made more sense to get a dresser that we could use as he grows older (we just added the changing cover).  The dresser we had was too tall (especially for my petite self) so we got this one from Target ( I love the white drawers and the wood accent that matched the basinet perfectly). Even though it is beautiful, it was a nightmare to put together. My husband was very patient and it took him a full day to built. The first two drawers are filled with baby things while the other four are half Gabe's (my husband) and half mine. It's working great, so far!

* a random parenthesis: the den ended up as an office/storage and our original dresser is there and became the perfect storage for all the baby things that will be used later on*




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La esquina agarró forma con la escalerita, las sábanas neutrales de animalitos, y los peluches (la jirafa y el elefante).  Luego sentí que le hacía falta un poco de verde (es decir matitas). Empecé a buscar como loca en Internet sobre que plantas son seguras para bebés pero preferí comprar unas artificiales. Estas que guindan son de Ikea y la idea era guindarlas en el techo con estos tejidos de macrame. Nos dimos cuenta que iba a ser imposible en el techo y la solución fue comprar una repisa de esquina. Así no tuvimos que abrir huecos en el cemento del techo y pudimos ajustar la altura fácilmente. El toque final fue la alfombra redonda peluda, me gusta mucho la textura que le dió.

Originalmente también quería que el cambiador de pañales fuese móvil- vi varios con rueditas para poder pasarlo del estudio al cuarto fácilmente. Pero preferí comprar un mueble y añadir el colchón para cambiarlo- así la compra era más versátil y se puede usar cuando Nico crezca. El gavetero que teníamos era muy alto, especialmente para mi tamaño. Este de Target me encantó. Es una belleza e iba perfecto con el moisés. Lo único malo es que viene en 2000 partes y se necesita todo un día para armarlo. Las dos primeras gavetas tienen cosas de Nico y las otras 4 son de nosotros. Por ahora este sistema esta funcionando bastante bien- ya iremos viendo.

**un paréntesis para las curiosas: el estudio es ahora mitad oficina, mitad depósito (con ropa grande de Nico y cosas que va a utilizar dentro de unos meses. Los gaveteros que teníamos antes quedaron perfectos ahí**





For the changing table/dresser, I got this round mirror (it's very well mounted, don't freak out super moms). I wasn't sure if I should add more wall art beside the mirror or to add a shelf.  The shelf is still an option but, at the moment, we are fine with the diaper caddy and a basket for all the things Nico needs when changing his diaper and/or grooming needs. The N is made of cardboard and I painted it gold.

This little plush dog you see on the changing table is called "Noah the dog" and it's from Cuddle and Kind; all their hand-knit dolls are made in Perú and for every doll, the company provides 10 meals to children in need. It's such an amazing cause, and the dolls are adorable. Check all of them out by clicking HERE.

Let me know what you thought of Nico's Nursery


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Para el cambiador/mueble, conseguí este espejo redondo (Super mamás preocupadas, les prometo que no se cae por nada del mundo). Del otro lado no estaba segura si agregar una repisa con decoración o más marcos. La "N" que ven es de cartón y yo la pinté de dorado, fue un mini proyecto tonto pero también divertido. Por el momento estamos bien con estos marcos y frases lindas. En el caddy tenemos todo lo que necesitamos: los pañales, las cremitas, peine, cortaúñas, todo lo que el necesita.

También quería mencionarles del peluche de perrito que ven en el cambiador; se llama "Noah the dog" y es de una compañía que se llama Cuddle and Kind; son todas hechas a mano en Perú y por cada muñeca que venden les dan 10 comidas a niños que lo necesitan. Es una causa muy linda y todos los peluches de animales son una ternura..

¡Espero que les haya gustado el "cuarto" de Nico!  ¡Les mandamos muchos besos!









MY LABOR AND DELIVERY STORY

5/31/2018


Woah I cannot believe I'm writing this post. I cannot believe I'm writing it while little Nico sleeps right beside my bed.

**You can see our pregnancy announcement HERE,  some frequently asked questions HERE, the story on how I told my parents HERE, and a personal article on body image during pregnancy**

I've noticed I always go back to the beginning. So let's do this: I found out I was pregnant almost instantly. It's like my body knew even before I missed my period.

After telling Gabe, my first decision was to change from an OB-GYN to a midwife. I wanted a different approach to this pregnancy. When I miscarried in 2017,  my ob-gyn lacked touch- his words were " you passed it all" while I was still processing everything that had just happened.

 I started reading how midwifes and doulas are more personable and I don't regret my decision. I found a midwife (or a mid husband as I called him for the past 40 weeks) and Gabe and I really liked him. We liked how he would still delivered babies at a hospital, but the approach was more holistic and modern technology was only used when necessary. I barely had ultrasounds, and  a c-section would be the last resource.



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¡Wow! No puedo creer que estoy escribiendo este post mientras Nico duerme a mi lado. Quería compartir con ustedes la historia del día que nació Nico. Prepárense para un post extra largo- especialmente porque siempre les cuento todo desde el principio. Empecemos:

Después de decirle a Gabe que estaba embarazada, mi primera decisión fue cambiar de un ginecólogo a un midwife (como una matrona, pero como era hombre de cariño le decíamos el patrón). Después de mi pérdida el año pasado, quería un trato más personal y me recomendaron mucho las doulas y los midwifes.  Conocimos a Richard, el midwife, y nos encantó su manera de trabajar; seguía teniendo un enfoque más natural pero sus pacientes dan a luz en los hospitales. Casi no tuve ecosonogramas y una cesárea hubiese sido la última opción en dado caso que alguno de los dos estuviese en peligro.








I feel very lucky that my whole pregnancy went by-the-book.  The midwife kept joking that the baby read the manual because everything happened at the exact week it was supposed to happen. For example: I had a little bit of nausea during the first trimester and it instantly stopped as soon as I reached my 13th week.

Around week 32, the baby was already head down. When I went to my Week 37 appointment, I was 1cm dilated and 25% effaced (effacement is the thinning of the cervix). That day, the Dr. said "Maybe I'll see you tonight or maybe next week" and I got so nervous. My parents started changing their flights to Miami "just in case"and you could feel some sort of tension in the air (a good type of tension, of course). We started prepping the hospital bag,  finishing washing the baby clothes and blankets, painting the apartment , and more.

Later that week I lost the mucus plug (don't google it, there are graphic images in the www world- now you are definitely googling it right haha, all my friends did). It's exactly that, a plug made out of mucus that protects the uterus from bacteria. This was another sign that labor was approaching- but again, it could have been that night or a few weeks later!

So week 38 came by, I was now 3cm dilated and 60% effaced. My midwife told me how I definitely have been having contractions but I had not felt a single thing. I was hoping I would be a crazy exception that goes into labor without pain (spoiler alert, this did not happen!!).  He said goodbye with the same words "See you tonight or maybe on the week 39 appointment!".



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¡Me siento muy afortunada que tuve un embarazo muy saludable! El doctor decía que el bebé se había leído el manual porque cada semana hacía lo que le tocaba hacer. En la semana 32 ya estaba volteado. En la cita de la semana #37 me enteré que ya había comenzado a dilatar y tenía 25% de borramiento del cuello uterino. Ese día el doctor me dijo que tal vez nos veíamos en el hospital esa noche, que ya era decisión del bebé.  Mis papás cambiaron hasta sus vuelos a Miami por temor a que se adelantara el parto- y no les miento, me puse bastante nerviosa. Arreglé el bolso de la clínica, nos pusimos a lavar la ropa de bebé, ordenar el apartamento, pintar y más.

Esa misma semana boté el tapón mucoso (no se pongan a buscarlo en google que hay fotos muy gráficas y no es muy agradable); pero es otra señal de que el trabajo de parto esta comenzando. ¡Más nerviosa me puse!

Pero nada, llegó la semana 38 y ahora tenía 3cm de dilatación y 60% del borramiento del cuello uterino. ¿Pueden creer que yo todavía no había sentido nada? Mi doctor me dijo que definitivamente había tenido contracciones. Parte de mí quería ser una excepción loca de esas que entran a la sala de parto sin dolor (¡de una les digo que no fue así).



Mother's Day came by, and a big part of me was hoping for an early Mother's Day gift- but nothing. He was cozy in there and I was glad he was making it to week 39.  So basically the same thing happened on my Week 39 appointment: still 3cm and this time he did not mention effacement. He told me how at Week 40 we would have an assessment to see his size and consider induction or wait another week.

Hearing those words made me go into work-mode, I said to myself "no more waiting at home, I have so much to do and the doctor is talking about 2 more weeks".  Right after the appointment, I headed to the mall to get some outfits to shoot. Then I started listing things on Poshmark with the help of my cousin, we shot a look...and I even got a 1000piece puzzle to keep myself entertained.

Later that night, Gabe and I were watching Netflix and I started feeling some period-like cramps.  Since I had not felt ONE THING, I thought it was my imagination. I thought that pain was Braxton Hicks. Halfway to the episode, I noticed they were not going away so I started timing whatever I thought I was feeling ( I wouldn't even dare to call them contractions). To go to the hospital, the general rule is 5-1-1 (every 5 minutes, lasting 1 minute, for 1 hour). When the episode finished, I was having them every 15 minutes, so I knew I had a long way to 5 minutes and I tried sleeping. The pain was getting stronger so I got in the tub (Cellphone in hand to time them. Many of the baby apps I downloaded have a contraction tracker, SO helpful). At this time, they were around 8 minutes apart.  I couldn't believe they were getting closer together!

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¡Parte de mí quería que naciese el día de la madre!- pero él estaba muy cómodo y yo feliz que llegara a la semana 39. En la siguiente cita me dijeron exactamente lo mismo, seguía 3 cm dilatada. Así que hablamos de venir en la semana #40 y considerar las opciones en dado caso que el estuviese muy grande o si esperar tranquilamente a la semana 41.

Escucharlo hablar de 2 semanas más fue como un " ¡Daniela, no puedes seguir esperando en la casa...hay que trabajar!" Así que me fui al centro comercial a buscar una ropa para el blog. Luego me puse a vender cositas en Poshmark con la ayuda de mi prima, tomamos fotos, y hasta compré un rompecabezas de mil piezas para entretenerme en plena espera.

Como todas las noches, antes de acostarnos estábamos viendo un show en Netflix y ahí fue que empecé a sentir un dolor parecido al de vientre durante el periodo. Pero como no había sentido ningún tipo de dolor, pensé que era mi imaginación.  A la mitad del episodio me dí cuenta que no se me iba el dolor, fuese lo que fuese (porque ni me atrevía a decir que eran contracciones). Para ir al hospital dicen que esperes a que sean 5-1-1 (cada 5 minutos, que duren 1 minuto, por una hora). Muchas de las aplicaciones de embarazada  tienen herramientas para monitorear las contracciones- intenté dormir pero cada vez me daban más y más frecuentemente.





By 2am, I woke Gabe up and told him to get his bag ready with toiletries and a change of clothes- plus we needed to add things like chargers and the camera. I'll talk more about the hospital bag later, I want to share what I took and what I actually used/needed. Our parents were in Miami but I didn't want to call anybody until we knew it was for sure! We headed to the hospital at around 3am, there wasn't a soul in the streets so we arrived quickly to the hospital. It was so empty that the main entrance was closed and I had to stop a few times just to breathe during the contractions.

When we got to the Maternity ER, the nurses didn't believe me when I said I was having them every 5 minutes. I have a HIGH tolerance to pain and while most women need to kneel, I was filing my forms in the middle of pain. The nurses connected me to monitor the baby and track the contractions- instantly I was told I was 5cm, that the contractions were coming strong, and I was going to be admitted. I was in shock, I really thought I would be sent home. There I found out my water never "broke"- well it did, but my Nico was so low that he acted as a plug. A nurse moved him and there it was! Oh and she instantly told me "he has SO much hair", she was right haha!

They took my blood for lab tests and I was admitted into one of the labor rooms.  Many moms told me that there was absolutely no shame in taking the epidural, to not be a hero and take it. I don't know why my blood work took so long, but they wouldn't give me the epidural until then. I waited for 2 hours; and of course, the contractions kept getting stronger and stronger.  Every time someone opened the door I thought it was the anesthesiologist, but nothing!  When she arrived at 6:30am, I was 7 cm. From what I understood, there wouldn't give me the epidural after 8 cm- so I was right on the line for it! To put the epidural in, Gabe had to leave the room. Many friends asked me if the epidural hurts. Honestly,  I just felt a big relief BUT I went so numb I was a little comfortable.

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A eso de las 2am desperté a Gabe para decirle que empezara a preparar su bolso y que añadiéramos lo que faltaba al mío (que si el cargador de tlf). Después les cuento más de lo que llevé y lo que realmente utilicé.  No quisimos avisarle a nuestras familias en dado caso que fuese una falsa alarma. Salimos a la clínica a las 3am- lo mejor de que haya sido a esa hora es que no nos tocó nada de tráfico. Las que viven en Miami saben lo terrible que puede ser la US1 a cualquier hora del día. No había nadie en la entrada de la clínica y las contracciones eran tan fuertes que tenía que pararme a respirar en cada una.  

Cuando llegamos a la parte de emergencia de maternidad, las enfermeras no creían que estuviese en tanto dolor. Yo considero que aguanto bastante dolor y mientras la mayoría de las mujeres se arrodillan, gritan, o lloran, yo estaba llenando los formularios para ingresar. Me conectaron a un monitor para chequear al bebé y ver como iban contracciones. Yo seguía pensando que me iban a devolver a la casa porque nunca rompí fuente (bueno sí, lo que pasa es que Nico estaba tan abajo que no dejó que el agua saliese).

En la sala de emergencia me sacaron la sangre para poder ponerme la epidural. Muchas de las mamás con las que hablé me decían que sin pena aceptara la anestesia, que no me las diera de mujer maravilla- y eso fue lo que hice. El problema fue que no me daban los resultados del examen de sangre, estuve más de dos horas esperándolo y por supuesto, las contracciones cada vez se ponían más fuertes. Cuando finalmente entró al anestesióloga, ya tenía 7cm de dilatación- y según lo que tengo entendido, a los 8cm ya no ponen la epidural.  Todas mis amigas me preguntan si la epidural duele: yo siento que era tanto el desespero entre cada contracción que yo sentí alivio (y un poco de desespero porque no esperaba que se me adormeciera TANTO el cuerpo). 



At 7am there was shift change and my nurse forgot to tell Gabe he could come back to the room. The new nurse helped me change positions and finally let Gabe back in the room. She started checking the monitor and she noticed the contractions were coming stronger than ever. I told her I was 7cm 30 minutes ago, but she wanted to check again. Guess what? I was 10!! She called my midwife in and as soon as he arrived, everything turns into a little bit of a blur for me.  Within seconds, they took some part of the bed out, legs up, and READY TO PUSH!

**The funniest part was seeing my mom calling my dad. My dad gets very nervous in situations like this one. He thought he had at least 5 hours so he left the hospital to paint my bathroom. So you can imagine my mom leaving several voicemails telling him to come back asap!**

My first question to my midwife was "how am I supposed to push when everything is so numb"; he told me just to go for it!  And that's exactly what I did when the contractions came in. He kept joking saying that I have done this before because I was pushing like a pro (whatever being a pro at pushing means haha). Then I noticed Gabe was crying, and I just looked at him like ARE YOU OKAY!? And within a second, they put Nico in my chest- I couldn't believe it! We had a few minutes skin-to skin before they took him to a little table behind my bed where the nurses weighted him, measured him and let Gabe cut the umbilical cord. There he was, Nico was born on May 17th, 2018 at 6lbs 3 oz and 20.25 inches!

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A las 7am hubo un cambio de turno para las enfermeras y nunca le dijeron a Gabe que podía volver a entrar al cuarto. La nueva enfermera, al chequear al monitor se dió cuenta que las contracciones estaban MUY seguidas y quiso chequearme otra vez. Yo le dije que hace media hora antes estaba en 7cm, pero a sorpresa de todos: YA ESTABA EN 10! ¡¡Inmediatamente llamó a mi doctor y apenas el llegó ya me estaba pidiendo que pujara!!

*un pequeño paréntesis. Mi papá se pone muy nervioso en situaciones como esta. Como todos esperábamos que todo iba a ser más lento, él se fue al apartamento a pintar mi baño. Se podrán imaginar a mi mamá llamándolo 100 veces y dejándole mensajes de voz que regresara YA!*

La primera pregunta que le hice al midwife fue "como se supone que sé cuando pujar si estoy tan adormecida"; su respuesta fue que me lo imaginara. Todavía no sé como lo hice, pero me dí cuenta que Nico nació cuando veo a Gabe llorando y yo estaba super confundida. En cuestión de microsegundos tenía a Nico en mi pecho (piel con piel como lo llaman aquí). Estuvimos un ratito juntos antes que se lo llevaran a una mesita al lado de mi cama donde las enfermeras lo pesaron, midieron, y dejaron que Gabe cortara el cordón umbilical por segunda vez.

Nico nació el 17 de mayo del 2018, pesando 2.800 kg y 51cm.





Then I noticed my midwife was very focused on me and I kept seeing towels and towels full of blood. Not going to lie, I got scared and asked him if everything was okay. There was some tearing and I was being stitched up. I don't know how long it took for the stitches but it felt like an eternity, especially because I wanted to be with my baby. Gabe even left with the baby and the nurses to have him cleaned up. They also did some tests and his blood sugar was low- nothing a bit of formula milk wouldn't fix.

As you can see, my labor was definitely short. Between been admitted and Nico being born, only 4.5 hours passed.  What I wasn't expecting was how painful the recovery would be. After recovering the feeling in my body, everything started to hurt: the stitches, the tailbone, my lower back where they put the epidural. I would take 3 minutes to get out of the bed, it would hurt to sit, stand, walk, go to the bathroom, everything. I wanted to be there for Nico and I felt frustrated I couldn't get him out of the crib when he cried or stand to change his diapers.  I'm so thankful I had my mom, my mother in law, and Gabe there to help.

We stayed at the hospital two nights. The nurses at the South Miami Hospital were absolutely amazing.  I feel like each one taught us something different; each one had their own way of doing things and we were just absorbing every bit of knowledge they were sharing.

I still can't believe he is all ours! When I got home, I started crying of happiness while holding him because I just couldn't believe it. The two days in the hospital felt like a dream and it felt real when we got home.  Every bit of pain is all worth it for him. What can I say? We LOVE YOU NICO!



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Yo estaba tan pendiente de oír si Nico estaba bien que no me dí cuenta que el midwife seguía pendiente de mí. Luego vi toallas y toallas llenas de sangre y me preocupé. Me desgarré y estaban agarrando varios puntos. No se cuanto tiempo estuve ahí pero se sintió como una eternidad ya que yo solo quería estar con Nico y saber que todo estuviese bien. Yo le dije a Gabe que cuando se lo llevaran, fuera con las enfermeras- y así hizo. Lo bañaron, le hicieron varios exámenes, y por un momento causó pánico porque "se perdió"- hubo un malentendido por 2 minutos que hacen que Gabe casi se desmaye jaja.

Como pueden ver, todo fue realmente rápido. Pasaron solo 4-5 horas desde que llegué al hospital hasta que Nico nació. Pero algo que no me esperaba es lo doloroso que puede ser la recuperación. Cuando se fue el efecto de la anestesia, todo comenzó a doler: los puntos, el coxis, donde ponen la epidural, etc. Me tardaba 3 minutos en pararme de la cama y me dolía todo: sentarme, pararme,e ir al baño. No les miento, lo que más me dolía era sentir que no podía estar ahí para él cuando lloraba o para cambiarle su pañal.  Realmente agradezco mucho la ayuda de mi mamá, de Gabe, y de mi suegra.

¡Todavía no puedo creer que es NUESTRO! Después de 2 noches en la clínica, al llegar a la casa me guindé a llorar (de felicidad). Era como si todo lo del hospital hubiese sido un sueño . Y aunque todavía me estoy recuperando, todo vale la pena al verle la carita. ¿Qué más puedo decir? TE AMAMOS NICO!






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